Yesterday I had my first appointment with my p-doc (the one i saw before was the hospital doc). The doc confirmed what everyone had been saying all along. Im bipolar II, which to me is a releif, II is less 'intense' than bipolar I. He changed my meds a little, kept me on the effexor, and took me off the trazadone. I hate the trazadone, it made me nervous and jittery, not relaxed, altho i think in the end it did somehow make me sleep. He started me on a mood stabilizer called lamactil. He was gonna give me lithium, but i refused it, there are so many bad side effects with that one.
I didnt sleep at all last night, i was so restless. The moment i dozed off, something woke me up again. Im so tired this am, and now i have flu-like symptoms.


I've decided to get back on the atkins diet. When J gets paid on the 5th is when ill start (we have hardley any groceries right now). I did so well on that diet, and i felt better when i was on it.
Im also going to start going back to school. I hope my financial aid comes thru fast enough so i can start the fall term. Im still going to stick with the social work/counselor major/minor.


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I have also decided to wait on the foster-care thing untill my moods are more stable --lord knows how long that will be. Maybe by then I will be ready to try for some of my own again?? anyway. We are also looking for a cheaper place to live. With me not working and stuff its really hard to keep up with all our bills.

Alright, I've been posting far too many quizzes and junk.


a bunch of things have been going on.


I dont remember if i mentioned before (and im too lazy to go check), but Jason and I are applying to become foster/adopt parents :) It takes a few months to get licensed, which is just what we need to get everything in order to have children in our home.

due to the smallness of our house we can only be approved for 2 children-which is plenty at the moment.

I would really like to adopt a baby. We want to have a baby really bad, but I need to get healthy first--physically and mentally.

I've been quite depressed lately. I've been to see a counselor, and am on a waiting list to see the pdoc so i can get on some meds. The counselor said it looks to her I may be bipolar...well that wouldnt surprise me a whole lot, because I had a doctor who diagnosed me as bipolar several years ago. I honestly dont care what the DX is, just as long as I get better. I really dont want to feel this way anymore.

Anyway--enough of the ickie stuff.


Today, I am cleaning out our spare bedroom/office, which has never really been unpacked since we moved in to this place (almost 11 mos ago). I need to take all the office stuff out and make it into a bedroom- a child-safe bedroom, so we can get approved :)

there are so many things to do when fostering--its just like having your own baby, you have to get all the stuff, cribs, toys, potty training stuff. The only real difference is (besides not giving birth) that we have to get stuff for all ages and have our house safe for all ages 0-17.

I think its gonna be fun!

It's been so long since I've posted a "REAL" entry in my journal. I really haven't had much time. I started working back in march, and I thought it would be part time...but they were working me like 43-48 hours a week, which was great, but I wasn't able to do anything for myself. Anyway, I laid down the law, and Told them that I would only work 8-3 mon-fri and whatever hours they wanted me to work on sat(which is usually 9-4). They were a little disappointed that one of the lemmings decided to do their own thing :P But they gave me the hours without any begging :)

I'm gonna start school again in the fall (I think). This will just be a fun thing for me tho...nothing that will help me with my Social work major. Im gonna get an AA in digital arts, so maybe I can help out my hubby with the website and stuff, and also do some part-time design stuff on my own :D I've played around enough in psp7 and photoshop that I've decided I should actually learn how to run the programs properly :D


Jason and I are still looking into the foster-parent thing. We found a new agency that seems better for us. This agency works with DSHS (Department of Social and Health Services), to place children in homes. We actually will get to choose what kinds of fostering we will do too. Im leaning to foster/adoption. I've always wanted to adopt, and I just realized that it doesn't have to be after I have biological children. MOre than anything I want a large family, I don't care if THe kids come from my womb or not.

Well I spose I'd better start getting ready for work...

Hope y'all have a great day